Seriously I can't copy and paste in here...man I don't want to type all that again...I guess that's the pain of having multiple blogs with mulitple purposes...sometimes you just want the anonymity and other times you really don't mind sharing...this is one of those I want some input from others...but now I can't copy what I posted...so I'll try to retype it...but it'll be shorter and less heartfelt...
How do you celebrate? What do you do when you're sad? Mad? Stressed? My answer to all is the same, eat. Either we go out to eat, or we eat at home. Seems my world revolves around food...I'm tired of it. Being a former bulimic I pride myself on overcoming that struggle with food...but really I haven't overcome it. Food still controls me rather than serving as the tool that it is....it's energy. Like fuel for the car, it's fuel for the body...that's not how my relationship with food is though...it's my everything...if I'm having a craving watch out cause I will satisfy that craving. I have no self discipline. I can sit here and think of the yummy favorites and I'm like Pavlov's dogs...mouth watering. I'm 31 years old and I'm sick and tired of letting food control my life. I do not want to teach this lifestyle to my child. I do not want to force it on my husband...he's a midwest boy so likes to eat. However he doesn't eat for any little thing. Part of it's how I was raised...you get together with friends, with family, you eat! You celebrate, you go out to eat. Then when I was sad or stressed or mad I'd eat cause it made me feel better. Of course when I was a teenager and felt my life was out of control food was the thing I could control hence the bulimia. Now I'm an adult though and I can control lots of things but I don't, I let them control me...I am going to make a concentrated effort to change this...why, it's simple, I don't want to kill myself. And that's what my eating habits and relationship with food are doing, slowly but surely.
Please if you have other ways to celebrate, or handle sadness, anger, stress, etc. feel free to share. I'm going to start researching and find out what other people do and then find something besides food that works for me...
